Paranoia, anxiety and contingency plans

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Life's been..... pretty kind lately...?

Definitely having my 'up' moment for now.

So i took the job to teach local kids to draw, started out doing commissions, taking jobs from various sources, and preparing some artprints to sale at some conventions.

Having a monthly fixed income is pleasing, i can get better art tools, i can feed my family with some proper food, more budget for everything!

I even have enough to spend on those coffee shops, nice clothes and luxury!



But i can't shake this.......restlessness?



Will this last?

Will the kids i'm teaching right now have the same learning passion in the days to come? Will the job keep on coming? Hell, will people even buy my prints at the convention?

Living as an independent artist, with no guarantee for income, can be daunting most of the time. Especially if you have people to take care of.

I can't help to feel that most things won't last.

I've my share of failures, but now i can't afford to fail. Because failure cost me many things.

Still young but, it won't be forever.

Should this trade of mine fails, should people no longer have needs of my skills.

What will i do?


....i need a backup plan, a contigency.

Which i have none at the moment.


And there's future concerns.

I can get by the days with minimum to no money at all (althought it's unpleasant)

But that is not the case with my family.

I need resources, insurance,


Damnit i've always been the carefree guy.

But with my family at stake, it's worrying and making anxious.
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